Heat Check

Is everyone familiar with the term “heat check?”

If not, then here’s an explanation.

This is a common occurrence for basketball players, most notably skilled ones like Jordan, KOBE, LeBron, DWade, Melo… whenever they’re on fire, or getting into a groove, they usually take a crazy off-balanced shot or a random three pointer, just to see if they’re really feeling it or they got on a lucky streak.  This is known as a heat check, basically seeing that if they’re really feeling it, they’ll hit it and keep that momentum going for the rest of the game.

I’d like to think of this post to be my heat check.  Not really feeling like I’m in a groove or in a rut or anything, but just wanting to see how the year has been turning out, four weeks in.

In a sense, I feel like this year has been a 6 so far.  Kinda glad I’ve been able to spend time with some awesome people, get my sneaker game on point again, and feel like I’m making strides with this contest…

BUT! I feel like I’m slipping in my coverage of things for atypicalLIVING. I also feel like my motivation for this Summer art show is slowly dissipating by the moment.  I haven’t taken the camera out for a little bit and this extra free time I thought I was gonna have with taking the semester off is not really panning out.

In fact, it feels like I have LESS time now, for some odd reason.

But, I’m looking to capitalize on this year’s wins and try to improve on the set backs so far.

There’s still 11 months to go, so I’m ready to step it up mentally. I need to stop staring at the wall and just run through them. I feel like I’ve hit this block mentally that just needs to be challenged and moved out of the way.  There’s a piece of me that wants to say and do impulsive things, but there’s also a piece of me that knows that now is definitely not the right time.

But, I really hope to say something soon. Being quiet about things is not a fun way to live. Need to let the inner monologue out and just put myself out there.  Ian was right, twitter has killed people’s inner monologues. I just post up pithy, 140 comments about life in general, without a filter or second thought, sometimes.  I need to reclaim that piece of me back and not post as much.  I need to just tell people in person, instead of DM-ing them some information.

It’s gotten TOO convenient. Time to check myself. Time to break through.