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So, I had been struggling with this notion all day long to confront about certain situations. It was something that was actually still in my mind as I pulled into the parking lot of service today.
Seriously, we gonna talk this out. Today.
And it was something that was on my mind during worship as well.
But, something funny happened during worship… I started to feel at ease and at peace about everything.
Like, it didn’t matter. I was here for one reason and one reason only: to worship God. Not to go all bananas on someone talking about me or anything like that… it was to listen to God speak and move.
But, the sin nature and my selfishness takes over and I was thinking about it again during the message. I was alternating between thinking about what would happen after service and what was going on right in front of me. I was paying attention to the message, but only half-heartedly, as I was mentally preparing for this confrontation.
But, as the message started to wrap up, I felt the need to do this lessen. Like, God was trying to tell me that He got this. He got this situation and that you should just continue to focus on what He needs me to do. Don’t fret too much about others opinions about you, just keep it moving and focus on the lessons that are being presented in front of you.
Pastor Kei brought it tonight, no doubt, and I know I should have been paying more attention, but the inner monologue going on just kinda drowned out most of the things that were being said.
God then proceeded to let me know that this was a really good message and that I REALLY should be paying attention. I made up my mind right then to listen to the message when the podcast posts.
And to make sure that I do that, as I was getting up to worship for the final song, I looked down at the iPhone and the notes I’ve been taking.
Somehow, between realizing that I should listen to the podcast, making a deal with God, then standing up…
My notes from the evening deleted.
OK, you win, God. I get it. I need to listen up more.
When God puts you on blast, He makes sure you’re paying attention.
So, when the podcast goes up, I’ll definitely be back, taking notes and really listening to what Pastor Kei is saying.
So, with that out of the way, I was left with the fact that my vindictive behavior was curtailed by the most Heavenly of hosts.
Which opened the door for the dopest 10 minutes of my day :)
It’s sad when people leave, but even sadder when you think that you were just starting to get to know them. I don’t doubt that we’ll cross paths again. Heck, I’ll even try to keep in touch this time ;)
But, when God corrects, God blesses. And I’ve been beyond blessed this past Summer. Jesus works when you don’t think you even deserve it and I seriously didn’t think I deserved any of this the past few months.
But, I’ve been blessed with meeting and knowing an awesome person that I really hope to keep in contact with. I was begin to doubt dope people like that existed in the world. Thanks God for talking me off the ledge.
OH! and about that situation. I saw the person after service, but I just let it slide. Not everyone’s gonna like what I do or how I do things, so I just need to keep it moving. Stay focused on the grind and do God’s work. Be positive when no one else wants to.
I did manage to remember some things that Pastor Kei said. Life is all about the journey, not the destination. You might be moving in circles, but God will keep it moving, so progress in God and you’ll never be stagnant. Also, that God will always finish what He starts. No matter how long the journey takes, it will be completed. Just have faith that He’ll lead you through.
So, walk into the light, let Jesus take the wheel and keep it moving.
The reward at the end is awesome. And if tonight was a glimpse, then the wait will be worth it.
