Burnt
I’ve been staring at this laptop for the past hour, trying to catch up with posts that I’ve missed today. I don’t know how much longer I can keep slacking off like this, not being up on the latest like I should be.
This work pace has taken a toll on me, truth be told. I no longer feel the need to go out because going out is no longer fun. Going out feels like… work.
The life of always having to take coverage means never really enjoying things like they should. I’m always wandering around, camera in hand, trying to make sure that I get all interesting aspects of the event captured on digital film.
And even on top of that, I still get trumped by those with better visual imaginations than I.
In the end, I feel like I’m doing my part for Hawaii, but am slowly beginning to think that what I’m doing just isn’t enough. I need to expand, if for no other reason than to get some help on this. I’ve always had this sense of pride in knowing that God has blessed me with this high energy tolerance for being social, but even now, I’m feeling burnt out.
I think this is the first and hopefully only time I need to say this… I just need to take a break.
Hopefully a nap will do, maybe I’ll snap out of it then.
